i never really enjoyed my stay on the more "mainstream" internet, but lately this general indifference has turned sour.

i have always been ashamed of my interest in certain topics or the weird way i consume media sometimes. i'm well aware i'm not the only one who enjoys these things, yet i always felt disconnected from larger communities. as such i tended to simply observe from afar.

and, with the rising aggressiveness in social media, i had completely given up on ever sharing my interests and the things i create based on them to... basically anyone else.

so i left my bad, but loved, creations to rot on my hardrive, on my notebooks, and the occasional napkin. i couldn't help but think that "i'll never have anything to show, maybe creating just isn't for me." people always thought that i was weird, that what i loved was weird; and if now i was gonna be especially hated for what i liked what was even the point in putting effort into... into anything?

even while writing this: in a space made by myself for myself, i still have this fear that somehow, someone is gonna find a way to hurt me.

so please: don't.

if you find my interests, this page, or maybe just me in general to be upsetting. please, take a step back, stop subjecting yourself to things you don't enjoy, and go do things that make you happy.

so, uh, this is all to say that in this page you'll find:

• really really really badly written poems
• weird reviews of shows/games/other media in which i find a way to totally miss the point
• barely coherent ramblings of various topics (sponsored by: my barely there grip on the english language)
• and weird (mostly undertale) fanfics

i'll put specific warnings at the start of all my writings in other sections.

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